Struggling just to keep breathing...

We all face a chapter in our lives when we felt being left out. It's the feeling that you wanted to shrink down and succumb to the pain knowing that everything is lost and you will never be able to bring back things where they were used to be. I really don't know which hurt most - the pain of knowing that everything is suddenly slipping away out of your full control or the truth that no matter how hard you try, it seems no one ever care and things for them are just as usual. It's just this one monumental moment that will take your breath and your sanity away. That no matter how hard you pretend and try to be happy, it all disappear when the day comes to a close. I tried to rethink over and over. I tried to rationalize. I just felt that it's finally coming to a bitter end. No matter how I tried, I had to swallow the bitter pill; every night I battle the regrets; I bear the pain of realizing that things are now just a trace of what used to be - and I struggle just to keep breathing....

Wont back down

You woke the morning up Running off the darkest night The longest light I've seen Here goes a chance I know Cashing in on all my chips Let all my ships come fly These days, a little bit longer than the last And all of your ways, a little bit stronger than the past And your light, found my bottle in the night Kept me in this fight, gave me second life And I won't back down I won't turn around and around And I won't back down Doesn't matter what comes crashing down I'm still gonna stand my solid ground You found me once and for all I laid it down in the sinking ground The hopeless undertow Singing out the gentle sound Rattling through my smoking screens My broken dreams last night Hallelujah ripped through my veins I heard the hammer drop My blood in the rain Hallelujah came like a train When all is lost All is left to gain

Quotable qoutes

"Sige! Magpakasawa ka! Alam ko namang katawan ko lang ang habol mo!" - Hipon "Hindi lahat ng kulot salot!" - Goldilocks "Alam kong nasaktan kita, kaya ganun na lang kung itapon mo ko...pero tandaan mo, dahil din sa katangahan mo kaya nasaktan kita. Sorry na..." - Bubog "HIndi lahatng ng pink pang-kikay" - MMDA "Pinapaikot mo na lang akong palagi. Nagsasawa na ako. Mabuti pa patayan mo na ako." - Electric Fan "Hindi lahat ng green masustansya." - Plema "OO, inaamin ko, sila'y mga yakal, apitong, lawanit at narra; at kami'y saging lamang. Pero maghanap kayo ng puno sa buong mund, saging lamang ang may puso. Saging lang!" - B1 at B2 "Hindi lahat ng malakas superhero." - Body Odor "Kung maka-palo ka akala mo anak mo ako!." - Ipis "Mauna na ako." - Utot "Sige, susunod ako." - Tae

Lost in the middle of nowhere

Have you ever felt like being lost? I do. Sometimes face certain part of life which leaves us hanging, waiting and expecting until we get caught in the midst of the unexplainable. That feeling of uncertainty which, when we encounter, will always create a confusing situation filled with questions. It is that moment when we hope for the best knowing deep inside our hearts that it will never come - that everything is just out of our control. And we keep ourselves hanging. Waiting. Anticipating. Hoping. Losing. Tears will fall and hearts will burst. But this emotional and enigmatic period of our lives will pass us by. It will be outlived and the only difference that there may be is - the how we face it and brave it as it encumbers us face to face.

All I Want

This song's somewhat old but it does feels damn good to hear it again: Nothings so loud as hearing when we lie The truth is not kind and youve said neither am I But the air outside so soft is saying everything, everything... All I want is to feel this way; to be this close, to feel the same All I want is to feel this way; the evening speaks, I feel it say... Nothings so cold as closing the heart when all we need Is to free the soul but we wouldnt be that brave I know And the air outside so soft, confessing everything Everything And it wont matter now Whatever happens to me Though the air speaks of all well never be It wont trouble me And it feels so close Let it take me in Let it hold me so I can feel it say...