Struggling just to keep breathing...

We all face a chapter in our lives when we felt being left out. It's the feeling that you wanted to shrink down and succumb to the pain knowing that everything is lost and you will never be able to bring back things where they were used to be. I really don't know which hurt most - the pain of knowing that everything is suddenly slipping away out of your full control or the truth that no matter how hard you try, it seems no one ever care and things for them are just as usual. It's just this one monumental moment that will take your breath and your sanity away. That no matter how hard you pretend and try to be happy, it all disappear when the day comes to a close. I tried to rethink over and over. I tried to rationalize. I just felt that it's finally coming to a bitter end. No matter how I tried, I had to swallow the bitter pill; every night I battle the regrets; I bear the pain of realizing that things are now just a trace of what used to be - and I struggle just to keep breathing....