New year

And the stone word fell Upon my still living breast. Never mind, I was prepared for this. Somehow, I shall stand the test. Its a brand new year, an end to start a new beginning. May this year be as fruitful as the previous one. I hope and pray that I will be blessed with the courage to face the new horizon, to welcome another year as a believer. Happy new year to everyone...

Depression

Pain, has an Element of Blank, It cannot recollect When it begun, or if there were A time when it was not. Depression caught me off guard. I never see it coming, until it explodes in my face shattering everything it could. Through the sleepless nights this cup shares the gloom with me...

The feeling I never felt

I did everything I could just to make you say I would do everything for you And I want to say youre mine but you came to me just fine You threw it all away... While browsing different blogs of differrent people, I came accross Chris' blog and find it never too late to share something about my very own graduation. Unfortunately for me, I never did felt the so called sad-happy feeling others are professing about. I was happy during my graduation but I never felt sad. I was happy and at the same time excited to usher a new chapter in my life. I was eager to face lifes new challenges. I was yearning to blaze new trails and leave behind the rudiments of life in school. I was happy but I never felt sad.Its not because that I have no friends at school cause I have a lot. I really dont know why I feel that way. Maybe because I know that there was nothing to loose. That even though me and my friends will part, I know that the memories that we have built together will always remind us that we will still possibly see each other. Maybe because during that time I have something in me that made me feel contented. I have something that tells me I can leave everything behind as long as I have that something in me. Its weird, but thats the way I feel; and I am happy though I kinda lost that something...

Choices

Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin Para lang iyong sagipin Ito ang tanging paraan Para mayakap ka Each and every one face different predicaments in life. Some of those deals with choices. I myself encountered choices which are on the brink of life and death regarding the consequences after. Recently, I wondered how each and every individual deals when it comes to choices and making decisions. Some may be impulsive, some may decide after a grueling contemplation, others may be depending upon external opinions outside the fringes of his rationalization , some may just sing mini-mini-my-ni-mo and for some reason, others may just fall back and hide. I marveled at the mystery of making choices, especially the unexpected ones. There are times when we are blown away when hearing how someone or somebody decides things out; how one becomes blatantly inconsiderate in making decisions. I marveled whenever somebody flagrantly decides to do the direct opposite of what others are expecting him to. I marveled but at the same time I learned to appreciate more the chance of making choices. I begin to be thankful that God gave us the freedom to choose and to rationalize, to reason out and weigh each and every situation we encounter. That He gave us freewill. I dont know. I guess others may consider the way they make choices after reading this post because I did while writing this one.

Too much for profit

My heart was stabbed deep by a dagger Surprisingly, I dont feel the pain... I only can see the bleed. I did caught up some of the episodes of PBB Celeb Edition on ABS CBN. Generally, I can say it was entertaining. Well I gues it is but human nature to be curious about other person's life and the way they live it. As a matter of fact, I did seem to enjoy it than the first edition. But the past few episodes got me irritated. I can barely see how the people behind the show tried to impliedly manipulate and discreetly dictate what should happen in the show which is supposedly a reality show. It was clearly showing that the theme of PBB is becoming: ratings at the expense of the housemates. One concrete example is the way they tried and used different strategies and negotiations just to convince budoy to finally show his mysterious hair. It sucks that 'kuya' was becoming too frustrated just for the sake of ratings. I think the whole thing started upon rustom's revelation which, proved to be an undisputable force to produce high ratings for the show. My question is just simple. Is this the way to treat your talents, in this case the housemates, who have been successful in drawing ratings because of their truthfullness or untruthfulness? Is this the way to treat the viewers as if thinking that "they can swallow whatever we force into them"? Entertainment is good whenever it is not too much motivated by profit. There must be a certain demarcation between profit and service - two things that Philippine television finds hard to define the previous years.

Courage

Patience defeats suffering; hope defeats fear... Today I learned about courage in a different and very relevant perspective. It was something that I have and I didnt know how to use. I was never aware of its potentials and capabilities - that when used properly can lauch the most massive and efficient offensive. I was caught empty handed until this day came. And what a surprise, I never knew I can use it this early...

Screaming Infidelities

I hate this song, but I cant help it: I'm missing your bed, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak, & you're not discreet. You make sure I know who's taking you home. I'm reading your note over again. There is not a word I comprehend, except when you signed it "I will love you always & forever." As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone & wonder, how you're making out, but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out. I'm missing your laugh, how did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you are pretending. I'm missing your bed, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to sleep. And this bottle of beast is taking me home. Your hair. It's everywhere. Screaming infidelities. Taking its wear.

Funny graduation

Come to think of it : the month of March marks the period for the very anticipated graduation of senior students whether high school or college. And yes oh yes, the tenor of the period is the ceremony which we usually call gradution or sometimes reffered to as commencement. While it reminds me of the good old memories I have had during my very own graduation, I found a very embarrassing, funny yet disturbing realization. Again, come to think of it, the usual graduation ceremony is never worthy to be called one without having the opportunity to march down the isle and receive the very precious "diploma". Again, yes oh yes, the diploma. But I never remembered receiving one during my college graduation rites; instead, I received mine after completing the tedious school process and waiting from a line full of frustrated queued students waiting to get hold of their precious diploma for the first time like me. The process I think is the same for every Filipino student. Isn't graduation a joke? I mean graduation is supposed to be the ceremony highlighting the completion of a degree in college and thus capped by the awarding of diploma to the graduates. In this very "special" day, the graduates should be receiving their diplomas. The "diploma" should be the real thing not just a props or a piece of bond paper rolled and tied with a ribbon to look like one! Now I realized that the solemnity and prestige of the event is beguilingly foolish. Lokohan lang pala ang graduation, gagraduate ka ng hindi mo naman makukuha ang diploma mo, tapos bilang pampalubag ng loob, aabutan ka ng bond paper na kunwari ay yun na ang iyong diploma at pagkatapos kakamayan ka ng school administrator nyo na parang tuwang tuwa dahil naloko ka nila. Imagine the feeling of those who still needs to complete some units in summer in order to graduate but attended the ceremony as well for they were made to believe it was a prestigious ceremony. Infuriating? Very demented.

Bread @ China Bank

Yesterday, the Bible Readers Society of the Philippines in cooperation with Breadthrenhood and China Bank conducted a successful Bible Study attended by China Bank's employees. The said activity was held at China Bank's main office in Paseo de Roxas, Makati. Bro. Fred Cabanilla from the Bread Society, unprecendently delivered a very relevant Bible topic with the theme: " Christians in the workplace: Living the teachings." The pics from the said activity are posted below :)

it's been a while...

Whew! its been a while btw, here are the pics from last week's BH assembly at Malolos, Bulacan. ..and the banner was purple kuya Roel dela Cruz with a power speech Breadthrenhood president Regie Paredes